“Would you like to know the secret to overcoming misery? You must find purpose; find a cause that gives your life meaning. But, that’s not where it stops. You must be committed and devoted to this cause; awake eager and enthusiastic to pursue this cause, fulfill your purpose. Find joy and delight in doing what you do, even when things get tough. And I’ll give you another hint: The only meaning causes are the ones that cause you to give up yourself. Self-serving people will always be miserable – never having enough, always wanting more. Once they get what they want, what then? They may seem happy, but that happiness is shallow and has no roots. Take their treasures, and see what happens. The misery returns. Strangely, enlightenment, freedom, and purpose comes from service. In purpose do we find the will to live and so forth do we find value in our lives and the misery subsides. The road to finding this specific cause is long and treacherous, but worth the time and effort. And you just might learn something along the adventure.”
“I encourage you to consider that I did not kill them, but rather was a scapegoat for a corrupt DA and incompetent police force. You see, I did not confess…in a rational fashion. This confession, which is factually false on many levels, occurred inside of a…therapy session. …I falsely confessed to murdering three people.
“…you must understand that, from what I know, almost every statement in the media is false. You know nothing of the truth, just like everyone else who isn’t [me]. And I’m not making that statement in an angry tone: I am just stating fact: nobody knows anything. I served as the [state of incarceration] scapegoat, and I was an easy target. I knew the outline of the house and was mentally ill – how could I successfully defend myself, especially as a minor. In all of their fruitless investigation, they were forced to fabricate evidence and manipulate my statements, from mental health documents, made while I was deemed mentally incompetent, to create this motive that I had an incessant need to kill other people, despite no prior history of lethal violence against other living creatures, like my pets. Heck, no violence against other living creatures at all.
“This is the situation in which I live: people are afraid because three people are brutally murdered in their home, and people like [the DA] and the police promise to protect them. The community is now partial, and reliant, upon the establishment – they trust their leaders and protectors. This trust allows the establishment to spread whatever lies they must and those lies will be believed. Therefore, no matter who was targeted by the police and the DA, the suspect was going to be demonized and convicted. DA [last name] and the [police department] chief of police announced my guilt on the day of my arrest before they even collected any evidence. What happens when you tell your dependents that they’re safe, only to find out you got the wrong guy? Oops. Now they had to do something to save themselves, even if it meant convicting an innocent 16 year old boy. Our leaders and protectors are humans also: imperfect and self-serving. Self-preservation kicks in and fingers will be pointed: [defendant] is a vicious, cold-blooded, triple murderer. Put him away forever. I am the scapegoat.
“This is the reality of my situation and the community is fine with this because my imprisonment is more comforting than the truth. How damned we are when we ignore the truth because it’s ugly. This is the world we live in. Our leaders, who promise to solve our problems, allow them to be created or create the problem themselves. The state…is an excellent example of evil, an evil establishment supported by an evil people. Justice is worth nothing so long as people feel safe and secure. So to hell with this crooked government and its blind followers.”
“My list of truths in life is growing.
- Crap happens.
- Life’s not fair.
- At some point, we have to grow up and get over it.
- We’re all a victim of something.”
“…everybody has a problem somewhere. I was plagued with mental illness that ruined my life and am now plagued by the possibility of dying in prison. We all have to bite the bullet somewhere, just another ugly truth of the world we live in.”
“In order for us to live in a world where the majority can be happy, we have to live with morality and righteousness. Considering that the majority of people prefer wickedness over righteousness, this reality will never occur… It is very unfortunate, but this is the nature of human beings.
“…the only thing that separates people from animals is morality, and when we reject morality what does that leave us as? And how many reject morality in the interest of their own greed and prosperity? Here we see a fundamental problem with our government, and the people who sustain it. It will forever be corrupt. This is human nature. Evil is not the exception, but good. Our society has become so complacent with evil actions because these actions allow us to advance our own prosperity and prestige.”
“…life is only short if you enjoy it. My 22 year existence has felt more like 40.”
“For being such an angry young man, I am incredibly sentimental when it comes to people. And for being so angry I have a great deal of love and compassion for people, with strong consideration for those in need. People see the programs on TV and have no idea as to who I really am. But most people are too busy to look past the surface or they simply don’t care. That is the world in which we live. How much crap happens because of ignorance, emotions, and misunderstanding. Kudos to the one who truly thinks before he acts.”
“The physical evidence, in its entirety, is either circumstantial or falsified. …it’s connected to me without a doubt, but it either proves nothing incriminating or proves that the state cheated to win this case. Overall, the evidence, in its truthfulness, actually proves my innocence rather than my guilt. Notice, not that I’m not guilty, that I’m innocent. All the way to the fact that my confession is factually incorrect. Yes, the one thing they used to put the case together is false. When they learned they picked up the wrong guy, and already declared his guilt, they manipulated, or hid, physical evidence to support the conviction.”
“Gravely, there is nothing for me in my past, I will start anew. Nothing from my past wants me anyway. I have nothing to go back too, and things are best that way. This poor dog has been through the fire a couple times too many.”