“Trials and ordeals make you tougher, but the strain and the wear definitely takes its toll. I’m unhappy with my ‘strength’ because I’m not as strong as I think I should be. I’m kind of insane because I think I should be impeccable, perfect, never a waiver in my emotional standing or resolve, no second guessing or slip ups. I believe I should be like Jesus Christ. Not gonna happen so I feel inadequate on a consistent basis.”